Sunday 15 December 2019

Does Not Matter


The trees fell arrow struck
like soldiers in the battle field
Kurukshetra, Golgotha-
does not matter.

Flowers bloom in Princess’ garden
like stars in earthly forms
rosy, red, yellow, white-
does not matter.

Million couples marry,
Priest says, go and grow
as if he is the Lord God in heaven
they grew, multiplied-
does not matter.

He cried- hey, stop
life is important don’t jump off
she whimpered what life
he ditched me after holy promise,
I’ve come to lift  you  to my heart
Is your love  lust for my body-
does not matter.

Come, it matters
Love matters
Beauty matters
Death too matters
For life matters.

Sabita Sahu

Buying A Gift

Prafulla Kumar Mohanty

What shall I buy for someone special to me, nay the only one for me whom the sun and moon are not worthy enough as gifts? I was familiar with the gift galleries in the Airports of both my place of departure and the city where I would land in a few minutes, and never liked ever the idea of something expected of a lazy choiceless man to pick up easefully. After I landed and got a prepaid taxi  I settled down to an hourplus ride through jammed roads and dusty air made dustier by eyeless men and women on all sides. After checking in my hotel arranged by my hosts I came out looking for a taxi again to go to the posh  Esplanade ( Chowrangee - Dharamtala) to buy something  special for my love. Gold I cannot give her diamond she does not like: And images of Hindu deities in gold or silver I don't like. So metals were out of my choice box. The other things like cloud, space and juicy spring and wintry warmth have already been given. She likes cricket but not crazy like me, she loves fun and gathering but that is not a gift item. She likes Biryani but I have already promised her to eat together at Nampalli, Hyderabad. O' What a mind boggling situation in a slow moving taxi ! Well a local cotton saree may be of interest to her, a good one smuggled from a neighbouring country with a porous border! But she prefers something less heavy, skin friendly and soft! Ok I'll go for one. I paid the taxi off near a big mall ( suggested by the taxi driver himself ) and walked into it somewhat dazzled by the lights and the fanciful decor. Finally I stood before a stall which I thought was my bountiful destination.
Do you have Tulip cotton? The middle aged man blinked and nodded his head. Do you have skiey silk? The man wanted to avoid me, perhaps and pointed at another stall. I followed his  direction and found the shop. I repeated the same questions and also added a new  one: Do you have Seasonless Sarees in cotton or wool  or silk? The young man said, you will find all these only in Amegha street in Gariahat. But don't you have something here? He brought out a few stocks and said these are Bengal  Sarees, Beneras and Odisha sarees in cotton and silk and these are all season sarees . None titillated my choice but to please him I bought ,what he called, a Jamdani saree : cotton  and cheap. I came back to the hotel as I was tired and hungry.

Next morning  I had my presentation at 10.am and it was over by noon. My hosts gave me a Toyota and said you can move around and go for shopping since your flight is at 7 PM. The driver will drop you at the Airport before 5.30 pm. I thanked them and went for my lunch and planned to go to the Amegha street. In the diner I asked the Manager about the exact location. He said something which I could not follow, but sat in the car and asked the driver - Amegha street.

The moment the car crossed the gate, the driver stopped  as a silent Protest March of the Communists was going on. None dared to move through them. The road was theirs; had to wait for 17 minutes and then taking a left turn  we moved.  The driver parked at a crossing and said Sir, I'll wait here, you come to this spot.  I walked into a big shop and told them to show me exotic sarees. Nothing pleased me. The irate shopkeeper said - You go to Dhakeswari, you will get what you are looking for. I followed the direction and walked and walked. The other pedestrians too said the same thing -  just ahead Sir, please find that red compound and enter. By the time I saw the red sandstone walls I was at the end of my patience. At last when I fronted the structure it was a temple. Someone looked at my suited frame and went on his way . I was not welcome nor  was I inclined to enter. But who is this Dhakeswari and why? Well, everything is divine in this  country . But what gift shall I buy for her here?

I removed my shoes and entered ; asked someone in saffron for the sindur. He gave  me in a bel leaf. I gave him some money and headed back. But after a few minutes I discovered that I was in a different street beyond my recognition. The shops were gone, the crowds were gone. only a few  shops , a diagnostic centre and very few vehicles , mostly bikes, on the road. I looked at the bel leaf, red and shining, the best gift for my love which finally I held  in my hand: but where am I? Am I in my country or what? I asked some persons to tell me from where I had come and how to go back? None could advise me . It was time to head for the Airport. But I did not note down the contact number of the driver. How to contact him? I had my return ticket in my  coat pocket and enough money. In desperation I telephoned my hosts to instruct the driver  to move  towards the Airport and wait for me there with my suitcase. I waved a willing taxi to take me to the Airport and entered the taxi. While trying to leave a sigh of relief I noticed my hands - the bel leaf was not there. My gift was lost.

Sunday 8 December 2019

Midnight Flash


When thunder rolls
night tightens into 
a tough knot of blindness,
I open my hair and wait
for the sky wind
to bring messages -
I don't know from where.

I seem to hear words
endearing and full of
perhaps -love.
When the sky clears
the knot melts away
in the sunshine I listen
to a loud range of
disconsolate rubbish
and then I love the world.

I love the world for -
its mysteries,
its drum shot riddles
and then I discover -
Love.
I rush out with my
flowing hair, coughing,
sneezing and panting
to catch the fleeting words
the sounds and the  silences
of the bygone centuries.

when flowers bloom,
birds  fly in sky,
everyone moves  their way
to be rooted somewhere
I never bother and ignore
all that men and women
loved and hated- I realize
no I was never in love.

Sabita Sahu


The World Of A Woman Writer



Prafulla Kumar Mohanty
The first consciousness of woman was that she was made out of a supernumerary bone of Adam's ribs; she was the other without any authenticity of her own. This  definitely  has caused a silent psychic rebellion in woman. When she referred to herself, after the title of Simone de Beauvoir's path breaking book Second Sex, she became more conscious of her secondary status  in nature's scheme of things. The reproductory process makes the woman more conscious of her place which is, if not, subservient or secondary, at least that of a  vassal to carry someone's seed and give birth to a child without having the right of ownership. In the Indian context the woman was given a separate role, the role of what we call today, a homemaker. But the idea behind it was definitely quite imaginative. When men and women moved from nature to culture, the woman was given a role of a grihalaxmi, the deity of the house- home, she would make it beautiful, hospitable and a self-sustaining world. But in practice she was  a womb, a slave without any say in decision making. She should be obedient and responsible for the  order in the home. Only in those rare cases where love enriched life she had at least the identity of a sweet life -partner, a separate person who could absorb the man in body and mind. But this was rare, few and far between .

But the rigour of patriarchy became somewhat soft when Bernard Shaw ( Candida) and Ibsen ( A Doll's House) and other writers gave  the woman a separate thinking mind. Candida and Nora had to fight for identity although the losses were irreparable. Education and the suffragette movement gave the woman a sense of liberation. She sub-consciously adhered to the idea that   a woman is not born, she becomes a woman, a Beauvoir assertion which gained currency. The European theatre had some changes in the backdrop and wings. But liberation came around the 30s of the 20th century.

But in India the scene began to change only after the Independence. The rigidity of religious rituals , superstitions, the gender bias and suppression gradually slackened after education at par with the West began in Urban Centres. Woman started speaking in public and also started writing in English. Toru Dutta, Sarojini Naidu and others were the pioneers. The local languages too got a big boost when English masterpieces were available even to the middle class readers. But till date a large population in India is tradition bound and superstitious as the light of modern education has not yet dispelled the darker regions of Indian mind. Women are still repressed and do not have their voice to speak and write. The local languages have a few women writers but no one dares to write her true feelings. Yes many talented writers  are now openly voicing their feelings.  Mahasweta Devi, Kamala Das, de Souza and Silgardo and many others have led the foundation of women writing in India not to speak of Booker winner Arundhati Roy.

In the context of Odisha the women writers are now getting into prominence. After Kuntala Kumari Sabata who for the first time made us aware of a feminine psyche, today we have Prativa Ray whose novels and stories have  retouched the mythic past with a modern brush. Prativa transforms  Draupadi and Ahalya into contemporary  women of substance. Her women do not transgress the accepted norms of inherited culture  but they are sophisticated and refined. They are not feminist rebels  but are more humanistic with an ethical core. Prativa Satapathy in her poetry gives free rein to her native passions without sacrificing  the essential feminine. There are more than 50  women writers in Odisha who are now following feministic footprints but they have not yet established  the humane kind of feminism. But occasionally there are sparks in their poems and stories which may turn into viable conflagration.

But seldom we find in them a  cosmic vision of pure womanhood. They project woman as suave, spirited and free agents of the society. Archana Nayak, Mamata Das, Sanghamitra and Aparna Mohanty are quite bold voices in Odia literature. Aparna Mohanty, Prabasini Mahakuda, Ranjita Nayak try to project  women as free and flamboyant in self- pursuit. Aparna Mohanty even writes freely about feminine sexuality. Paramita Satapathy in her long and short stories tries to combine the mystic  with diabolic in a fair way. But we are yet to see a woman's vision. The mystery of sex, the mystic of relationship and the larger feminine reality are still half revealed. Only in Prativa Ray's latest novel 'Praptesu Prithivi' we get a glimpse of today's reality in all its lucid details without, however, the much needed redemption. Adventure, heroic passion of the feminine kind are yet to be visualized  by the woman writers . Yet they have now created a language without phallocentrism, leaning more towards the poetic, the delicate and even the sublime. But the goal, purpose and the cool serenity of the feminine essence are still illusory.














Sunday 1 December 2019

Guilt Consciousness


Prafulla Kumar Mohanty

Logicians and intellectuals distinguish between guilt and crime. I don't know whether guilt is less bloodletting than crime, but crime they say, is an offence punishable by law  and guilt is an offence. Choicelessely I have to accept this distinction. If a man kills his wife for adultery, it is a crime but if a man cheats on his wife it is guiltiness! Nietzsche calls guilt, 'bad conscience', and by way of illustration suggests a debtor's promise conveniently forgotten over time. He knows that he has to pay back but he does not. This part of his memory is internalised. He moves in the society, meets his creditor often with a sheepish smile, if confronted repeats his promise to reply but doesn't. This man has definitely a bad conscience but the recognition of his guilt is below the surface. He deliberately forgets his social moral responsibility. All those who are in politics make tall promises to people. For instance Modi promised 'Good Days' ( Acche Din) but he himself knows that his own definition of Acche Din is a mysterious self deception. But in his monthly Radio broadcast to the nation- Mann Ki Baat- he has never confessed his guilt. But does it mean he has a clean conscience? The atrocities  committed by the East India Company have never been publicly admitted : Does it mean the British do not have guilt conscience? A guilty mind whispers his guilt to his lifeless pillow while fidgeting in the bed at night. But is it ever redeemed?

Instances, however, are aplenty, of people who never realize that they have done immense harm to people while trying to further  their ambitions. One of the most "sinful", illustrations of guilt is in the Mahabharata: Dronacharaya, the Guru, the Teacher of the  Kaurabs and Pandavas, who never taught Ekalavya demands Gurudakshina of him when he saw his brilliance as an archer. Ekalabya was of a low caste tribal community and could not get access to any  Guru of Drone's calibre. But he had an earthen image of Drona and worshipped it as his guru. By demanding the left thumb of Ekalabya without any rights, with a view to incapacitating him as an archer for the rest of his life the guilt which Drona  committed borders on crime. Guilt is not  a mistake, it is a bloodless crime which ought to weigh on the mind. But no man who is not publicly condemned or judicially punished ever realizes that he has done  immense harm to a human being. Bhisma in the same Mahabharat took the vow of celibacy only to facilitate marriage between his father Santanu and Satyabati. Was it not a betrayal of the kingdom? When he did not use his moral authority as the most respected in the family to avoid the Draupadi denuding scene in the open durbar, was  he not guilty of inhumanity against the daughter-in-law of his clan? I take these instances from our ancient epic only to avoid known examples of our times. But what I intend to prove is that guilt is more criminal as it betrays a Being's worth in life. The wonder, however is that such guilty persons never suffer from self-flagellation of the soul or psyche or innate moral sense.

The dalits complain of repression and torture by the so called higher castes over long centuries. But does this guilt  ever shame the higher castes? Manu and other social scientists who classified the society by creating  hierarchies cannot be faulted for God has created human beings alike but has given different mindsets to people. Manu's class and caste system created a social organism which operated as a cohesive unit. One part of the Organism must think and plan, another must protect the Organism, a third must earn and feed  and another must do the execution of things  by physical leg work. Otherwise if all parts do the same  function the organism will lose all dynamism and could become effete. By merely faulting the  social thinkers  who created a system of social dynamism we are irrationally blaming a group that sustained life systems. And to remedy an imaginary law we create a sense of guilt artificially in a section of society that was more capable, agile and intellectually alert.  Moreover the 'accused' are no more available, so are the victims. By reservation we create  a new order where the capable are  deprived of their rightful place: and by placing the undeserving above the deserving we create a new anomalous system where suppressed anger  surfaces pushing away the unconscious guilt of remote generations. Those who have reversed the order of the system are they not guilty  of the new class system of bureaucracy, judiciary, management gurus and the labour class?  The same system of the old Masters operates in the present day world with new nomenclature. And there are guilt ridden smiles which turn violent in no time.

We are all guilty of being born for we have to do many things harsh, cruel and sinister to survive. Love is betrayed , trust is belied, promises are broken, facts are violated every moment in our reality: If we feel guilty the human race cannot survive.

Tribute

Am I a tourist here

alone aimless and lost

in the crowd of homes,

hotels and exotic temples!

 

I searched for a friend

who glanced at me  and moved on,

I searched for a partner to share

the gloomy destiny of the earth

but lo! 

He hopped on to commandeer me

to live in his nest for good!

 

But I am now free, 

no more tourist 

in search of curiosities,

come and visit my cottage

join me in my song

my celebration of life's afternoon

my cottage is home and temple, 

a poetic tribute to the Maker.

 

Sabita Sahu

 

Sunday 24 November 2019

The New Flute


He walks alone
on the wavy hills
playing the flute
golden and melodious
dispelling dry clouds
beyond the sky,
Who is he ?

Is he the waylost Krishna!
wandering aimless
after Kurukshetra
with the blood of mankind
spating his senses.
His guilty mind repenting
in golden music or is he
a pathfinder walking for
his magic discovery.

Is he immune from hunger
and thirst?
Does he sleep
in the thorny forest
lonely and wild?
Is he searching for me,
for my arms to lull
him to sleep in my lap.
He must have lost his way
waiting to sing another
Gita for Man.

I'll walk rising up
from my seat of worries
new and old,
without me he is incomplete
He cannot create another Gita
nor create the rhythm of life,
Let me rush I am late
wasting time in idle talk.

Sabita Sahu

Forever New